Friday, January 7, 2011

Quiet after the Storm....... I Tried to be Good.....Really I Did !


To say this week has been a strain would be an understatement. Watching him prepare to move out.... to start a new life with out me. A life with another woman. 
I promised myself I wouldn't cry.... I didn't cry. 
He asked me if I would do his laundry...I said he'd have to pay me... he said he would. I said if he didn't I'd throw it all out.  He said I wouldn't. 
Last night I asked for the laundry money..... he laughed. 
I took the clothes and threw them off the deck towards the fishpond. Since the cold had returned the pond was mostly frozen  I emptied the ash bucket from the fireplace on top of them. Childish I know but it felt good!
 Then I went to bed. No tears and no regrets. 
Saying goodbye this morning was surreal and tear-less. 
So now I'm alone and I feel ok. 
I'll be ok!  

3 comments:

  1. I would have done the same...

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  2. Me three...
    I'm so sorry to hear this. I know it's hard. Been there, but that was a long time ago.

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