Quiet after the Storm....... I Tried to be Good.....Really I Did !

To say this week has been a strain would be an understatement. Watching him prepare to move out.... to start a new life with out me. A life with another woman. 

I promised myself I wouldn't cry.... I didn't cry. 

He asked me if I would do his laundry...I said he'd have to pay me... he said he would. I said if he didn't I'd throw it all out.  He said I wouldn't. 

Last night I asked for the laundry money..... he laughed. 

I took the clothes and threw them off the deck towards the fishpond. Since the cold had returned the pond was mostly frozen  I emptied the ash bucket from the fireplace on top of them. Childish I know but it felt good!

 Then I went to bed. No tears and no regrets. 

Saying goodbye this morning was surreal and tear-less. 

So now I'm alone and I feel ok. 

I'll be ok!